Through Blackest Night...

Oh my, naked eyes
I should have kept you
I should have tried
I should of been more wiser kind of guy
I miss you

Give me wings
Give me space
Give me money for a change of face
There's noisy rooms and passion pants
I loved you

Where's the morning in my life?
Where's the sense in staying right?
Who said time is on my side?
I got ears and eyes and nothing in my life
But I survive your naked eyes
I'll survive

You alone across the floor
You and me and nothing more
You're the great mistake I never made
I'll never lied to you
I hate it when you lied
But I'll survive your naked eyes
I'll survive

People boys all snowy white
Razzle dazzle clubs every night
Wished I'd sent a valentine
I loved you

I'll survive
Your naked eyes
I'll survive
I'll survive
My naked eyes
I'll survive
I'll survive
Naked eyes
I'll survive
I'll survive
I'll survive

This song was written to all who have loved them and left them,went on about their lives, and after you've had your fun, it hits them. The one person that came to mind that they can't forget.The person they took for granted, who finally got fed up and left never knowing that they mattered, until they hear this.Then if it dawns on them, they figure it out.

The time Aquaman is actually opening his stubborn mind

I've done wrong.
I know I have.
But, I know it will never happen again.
Because I am taking the steps and precautions to make it never happen.
I guess, to be honest, that I'm scared. I know she deserves better. Maybe my brain does bad things so she will see that and go for a better guy. Like in my subconscious....Fucking Freud. Or I could just be really dumb. Which is a high possibility. I want her to go out and meet new people. You cant be with one person all your life. You need to expeirence more...When I write I realize things. Maybe I AM REALLY THE ONE AFRAID! Afraid of actually letting love in to stay, Maybe i have the need to ruin it subconsciously because I think I'm not good enough for it. I think that is it... I have to ruin everything good because I dont deserve it. I undermine anything good I do. Maybe Im mean so noone likes me so I can be alone and hated like I truly deserve. Not a day goes by where Im truly happy. I hate myself and everything I stand for. But if i changed I'd lose everything. Im always sad, I've learned to hide it from anyone and everyone. I don't know who I am. Am I a cheater? Am I a loser? Am I good hearted? I don't want to be evil or cruel, I don't. It hurts me. This mask is clung so tight to me that its taken over me.
I've always felt that something is missing from me... That I need something. That something is a thing I've fought so much and spoken so harshly about. I think it may be a higher power... So I sought out a mentor. Someone to help me understand better. Ms. Tedford was ecstatic when I asked her. I spoke to her today for an hour or so about her experiences and how there can be some proof to the word. She speaks it so truthfully that I can believe her. I seek no help from groups. But she is making a major influence. This is good for me...I think this may be the way out of this dark shell.

I've felt depressed and confused for the past four years of my life. I need a guide.