Thursday, February 19, 2009

Waiting for my real life to begin.

I stand here on the dock,
My mask has worn thing.
The cruel beating of the crisp sea breeze has taken it's toll.
This mask is my saftey net.
I rely on it in the time of need.
My ability to breath underwater is beging to dampen.
The water is foggy and deeply polluted.
The other people have dumped there lives into it.
This mask has clear eyes.
It lets me see things as they are.
The fog is lifted but with that comes a terriable toll.
The mask does things that are logical, not emotional.
I would like to think of myself as a hero.
That is something I aspire to be.
But I am of course only Aquaman.
I am no hero.
When I try to help, I only hurt.
I love you, I can't have you.
I love you, I hurt you.
I love you...

But I think truely the only one who can soathe the pain
is this mask.
It makes me fear that you are getting old and battered.
How can I survive without you?
My heart isn't strong enough to bear with everything.
The water I breath will begin to choke me and repulse me.

I fear so much that I'm losing my Abilities.
Please sea, Please Sea what I can not.
Let me think Logically.
Because my emotions are as riddled as your water.

I ask you as your king.

Save me.
I'm the only one who can.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

"You know, Sometimes You really are a superhero"-Bonnie

In this life,
There are two types of people.
The Hero- The do gooder, The kind of person who has no goals other than to make others happy, Save the day

The VIllian- They take, Never give, Hurt, Prospre

Now, What are you?

I've drawn my line at the Hero side right now.

I will help you.
I will save you.
I will heal your wounds.
I will be your savior.
I will give you my last breath if it means your happy.

But In the end, The hero always has his own problems. He can't let anyone see. Can he?
Because then his enemies know he is weak, Then they can strike.
He can tell noone his sorrows because he is truely the weaker of the two sides.

Everyone roots for the bad guy these days. That's really the winning side.

But my deat freind, I control 70% of the world with my oceans, and these tides are on your side against any goal you want to take on.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

The Tides


I can't take it.
My mind is shifting.
The waves of thought are crashing.
The sea has darkened.
I have no control.
I shall sit in my throne and watch it all play out.
All I can do


Is sit back and hope it turns out well.

I am as they say a worthless super hero.
I can't fly or solve crimes.
But I can try my best to help everyone.
The thing is
Noone can help me.
My sea is restless.
I wish her peace and hope she settles.
Because I do not want to rely on another.
That will make me weak.
I can't call in for backup.
Because they may be lost in the tide with me.


Tuesday, February 10, 2009

I feel...


I feel sad. I hate my mind. Things are bothering me that really shouldn't. I guess it is because of my deppression. But who knows because I am a failure and need to go back to the shrink says my mother. I'm not doing so hot. I feel like giving up and just hitting my knees and fall over. Just laying there in silence....

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

It's a brand new day

"You've shown me the light
It's a brand new day and the sun is high
and all the birds are singing your gona die" -NPH from Dr. Horrible's Sing-ALong blog.

This musical makes me laugh.
"Go ahead and laugh, I'm a funny guy!"
I listen to it as I write this to you.

I feel like a monster, I want things.
But I feel as if in some way that is diabolical!
Because the other dosn't want it.
The kryptonite to my superman.
Not much power over it, Just hit my knees and give up trying.
This may seem like bitching and complaining.
But it's not in anyway, People can only put up with so much.

That subject is done until I feel like i want to talk about it again.

"If home is where the heart is, Then home is in your chest"

Where is the Justice league?
This world has no heros.
No morals.
No heart.
No soul.
It's a dog eat dog world out there, Just hope you have the bigger teeth.

Good deeds go unrewarded. Human Nature is changing.
People do things to gain some ground for themselves. Not to help someone up before them. Even those people get no appreciation. The person who was lifted atop the ground will just step on their hand and watch them fall for the hell of it. People are stubborn and self pitting. I try to help you. But my advice goes in one ear and out the other. That's not directed to anyone. It's just to everyone.

I rant. Not blog. I write because i want it out of my mind.
Sleep would be nice.
Not getting what i want or any appreciation. Nothing new.

But I will be happy with the small things because that gives me a reason to be happy.
For the problems...They can stay locked up.